Pure Act

philippe_petit_setting_off-xlarge

Last week, in the New York Times (Dangerous Curves) I watched a video about Roslyn Mays, an overweight pole dancer. In skimpy clothing, Roslyn was celebrating her body. She was putting herself out there, despite the shame that was directed toward her for being “too fat”.

I’ve been dealing with some body image issues and am drawn toward notions of radical self-love – the way that I look at myself, touch myself, feed myself, rest, move. As if there could be a hidden magic within my body, waiting to be awakened, despite my age, my disease, and some mangling surgeries.

Self esteem is not something static, Roslyn Mays says in her dance, not something that you have or don’t have, but something that is only given moment to moment, as you dare to put yourself out there, letting your body converse with its surroundings. Self confidence is active, erotic, a knowing of self that is awakened and lives in the moment as you allow it.

It is a beautiful thing to behold, both in others and in yourself, when it happens.

This brought me back to Robert Lax’s fascination with pure act, jazz, and that mysteriously awesome day – August 7, 1974 – when Phillipe Petit walked on a tight rope between the Twin Towers of the World Trade Center in New York City. He played and performed, dancing, laying down on the rope, kneeling to salute the crowd.

Awesome (there is no other word for it) photos of this feat – the “artistic crime of the century”- are here.

Petit’s words capture the risk that it is to be alive:

“Many people use the words ‘death defying’ or ‘death wishing’ when they talk about wire walking. Many people have asked me: ‘So do you have a death wish?’ After doing a beautiful walk, I feel like punching them in the nose. It’s indecent. I have a life wish.”

This is also what Lax (and Merton) were getting at:

“… a lot of the these little poems that Merton writes including the one about Our Lady of Cobre, but especially the little funny ones, I think are intentionally echoes of bajan or calypso songs. I think the rhythm in a lot of them and the way they trail off at the end is just the way —

“I just realized that nobody has mentioned it, but I always took it for granted too because we used to play those things all the time. When we weren’t playing jazz, we were playing calypso records. … that business we were talking about with “act”.

“I think that goes for me, it goes together with all this business about jam sessions too. At the top of a jam session when things are really going good, it’s as near as a group like that can get to being perfectly in act, perfectly in realization, not IN POTENTIA, but right there. A real jam session is likely to start at three in the morning and get good by five, and by that time all the customers have left, it’s only the musicians playing for each other, to each other, with each other, and they are just astonishing each other by these felicitous turns they find in music.

“With their instruments, they’re talking and they’re playing and it isn’t a competitive thing except in the very best way. All of this is an approach to this idea of complete act, pure act. (“When Prophecy Had A Voice”, interview between Lax and Arthur Biddle p. 435)

About Circus of the Sun, Lax says:

“It has all the business about the sun coming out and Mogodor coming down the field and they way he said hello. Completely casual – hello. They didn’t leave any doubt that they were pleased to see me. They took me right into the family. Mogador and I would go out on the trucks all night and talk. He enjoyed talking. He suggested calling my book “Unfolding Grace.” He had been reading some mystic and he was getting good ideas. He said the thing about a performance or anything like it was throwing everything away. What you’re doing is getting rid of everything by every gesture and everything you do. And then you’ve got this pure thing left.

“… even a somersault on horseback, for example, after it had gotten to be everything you might think it was – like a test of your strength, a test of your power, or a good way to amaze the public – everything it might be except just this thrill act itself – is what you’ve thrown away. It is like a mystical thing.

“… I think it’s what Merton is saying about prayer, – whatever it is, anything in it that is an impurity, that is anything but the act itself, which is practically unnamable. And if it is what it should be, then the poetry is prayer, the acrobatic act is prayer.

“Pure act, I think it’s a metaphysical concept starting with Aristotle and flowering in St. Thomas that God is pure act and that there is no POTENTIA in Him. But that almost everything else in the universe is IN POTENTIA, it’s on its way to being pure act, on its way to unity with God. But only God is pure act. And that made me think about a lot of things. One of them is that business of the purity of an acrobatic performance, of any performance, at the point where it becomes really pure, is at its closest to the divine and closest to that unity.”

“Throwing everything away except the act itself, and I think at that point it also joins with the ideas of Zen, that everything is right here in this moment, and all those same things are being thrown away in what they describe as the Zen act. So if you were living in that kind of purity or call it action, it would be close to the kingdom of heaven. (“When Prophecy Had A Voice”, interview between Lax and Arthur Biddle p. 437-438)

Prayer.

Like Roslyn Mays dancing on her pole.

What about me?

“To me, it’s really so simple: life should be lived on the edge. You have to exercise rebellion, to refuse to tape yourself to the rules, to refuse your own success, to refuse to repeat yourself, to see every day, every year, every idea as a true challenge. Then you will live your life on the tightrope.” Philipe Petit

Advertisements

2 Comments Add yours

  1. You’re really on to something, Beth.

    Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s